| Sooo...if you're supposed to live your life like everyday is your last, how do you do it when other people are so selfish? Life is obviously too short to hold grudges, and I am teaching myself not to hold them. I realized a couple days ago that I woke up everyday mad about something, but in the grand scheme of things that little thing really wasn't important and/or a big deal. However, it is very hurtful to me (probably too hurtful) when I try to stay in contact with someone and they never respond. I don't want to be mad, but how can I not be? What is so hard about writing someone back or calling someone back? It takes a small amount of time to show that you care. How is it that people can have all the time in the world for other things (tv, partying, dates, frisbee lol), but no time for the ones that have always been there? As far as I know I haven't done anything to anyone that would piss them off (lately...lol). Yet why is it that they can't extend the same courtesy? Do they think they are too good for me? Do they have better friends?
I think part of me cares too much. I worry about people I barely know. I take their pains on myself. I feel like it only takes me a few minutes to reach out and make sure that person is okay, so why not do it? If I can make their day just a little bit better, or if I provide some kind of relief for them after something hurtful/scary/etc, then aren't I doing my job right? What does it hurt me to do it? Perhaps I am not the one they want to talk to, or maybe they don't want to talk to anyone at all, but what if they did want to talk to me, or talk period? How do I know that. I guess to me it's better to be safe than sorry, and I don't want anybody to be sitting there in pain when I could have easily helped by listening or providing a shoulder to cry on. And it's hard for me to realize that other people aren't like that. That's probably my biggest flaw that extends to more than just this. It's hard for me to grasp that others don't share the same morals and principles that I do. And that's probably why I get so hurt when people don't write me back, or call me back. It's something that is second nature to me, that I don't even think twice about, but it's just not important to some people.
This is the only thing stumping me about living your life as if it were your last.
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